I just laugh listening to all those things I had on my playlist, desktop, and music accounts to keep me company during the stressful nights in freshman year.
For some reason, that word seems perfect to go with a big sigh. Freshman year was only a year ago, but you know.... minus all of those thoughts, it's scary knowing the past that was once so close to you, will never come back. The fact that the anterior moments of your life are unreachable, and only left to remain as a reflection.
Playing song after song and skipping 3 or 4 at a time, brought back memories and flashbacks of the experiences from last year. I thought of how these songs related to my life at that point, and how they comforted me. After listening to some of the really happy, uplifting songs, it made me realize how I was immature back then, to be so ardent and excited about the tiniest things that didn't really even matter. Listening to the sad songs for some reason gave me peace. But, some of the lyrics were so deep and meaningful in such a depressing way, I just skipped the songs.
Man, I don't really feel any different, but I do accept that I have changed in a lot of ways. Just from listening the soundtrack of my freshman year and looking at the pictures I saved on my camera have brought so many emotions in one day.
Although I'm a day late, here's to another wonderful new year. It's funny how people look forward to a new year -a new quarter, semester, school, home so they can start over and have a fresh start. I used to be one of those people. But now, I like to think that people should make 2010, and every single year a good one by making the extra effort to smile, and work harder than the previous year because there is no point in depending on a clean slate, if you're the one who is in control of your life.
This year, I want to really make a change. I want to start living life. I don't have a list of my new year's resolutions, but I know what I need to do, improve, work harder in, give back to, appreciate, and you know, change in general. I'm just staying broad on my goals, that way I can accomplish things at the same time. But I'm still going to make one, because I've been doing it for my whole life anyways haha.
Life just goes by so fast. Man.... it goes by too fast. It goes by faster and faster as you get older.
Who knows what we'll become in the next 10 years.
I'm just thankful for the strong past I've had - all the good and bad that occurred.
I'm just walking down the path I was given to follow, awaiting for new adventures, challenges, triumphant moments and failures, and new friends.
Bleh, today, my thoughts aren't being transferred very well into words on the computer screen. wait, they never have. my blog posts always sounded like thoughts molded into separate paragraphs, and just other blabbers. I'm tired. I don't think I sound very much like myself here right now. I'll fix it later whenever I remember to get on the computer again.
Happy New Year everyone! Wishing the best of luck to you guys, in the year 20010. Make it a good one. God bless you.
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